reading the page twice
“And a woman having an issue of blood twelve years, which had spent all her living upon physicians, neither could be healed of any, Came behind him, and touched the border of his garment: and immediately her issue of blood stanched. And Jesus said, Who touched me? When all denied, Peter and they that were with him said, Master, the multitde throng thee and press thee, and sayest thou, Who touched me? And Jesus said, Somebody hath touched me: for I perceive that virtue is gone out of me. And when the woman saw that she was not hid, she came trembling, and falling down before him, she declared unto him before all the people for what cause she had touched him, and how she was healed immediately. And he said unto her, Daughter, be of good comfort: they faith hath made thee whole; go in peace.” -Saint Luke, 8:43–48.
lately, I open the word as soon as I wake my eyes as much as I can within will. and the past couple of years of doing so: maybe two years at this point, sometimes I reread the page twice in order to soak up the wisdom of the daily word. and for some reason, this page I re-read I would say about three times when waking up. re-reading, and asking myself: “in what ways does faith in God and his Holy Trinity make us whole?”
there are things that the I feel as if only faith in God can genuinely heal and make whole. we look to everything else, outside of ourselves: in order to suppress the pain. the illness. the way that we feel, the trauma, the circumstances we have to deal with. and looking outside of ourselves, in this problem. life happens all the time. but how often are we looking inside, and asking God to make us whole within strong faith?
faith is the propellant to dreams, trusting God, trusting the process, and riding the journey. faith makes us whole, and even the deepest mysteries of our suffering in depth of pain can be made whole again within the insides of our souls. the complexity of human nature, and this beautiful experience of living life.
lately, I just talk to God: repeating the verse of daily prayers. that faith makes thee whole. faith in God’s Holy Trinity makes us whole. it doesn’t matter the scars, or what happens. God can make you whole overnight. or, beautification of overnights. you just need to believe, and have trust that sometimes what cannot be healed is something that only faith the size of a mustard seed can only heal.
there are wounds that no matter what application of the outside you bring forth, only a faith in God can get you out of: and not even get you out of. but heal. bring peace. a change of circumstances. and faith is a propellant of dreams. and if you have faith that even more than a mustard seed: a whole bag of mustard seeds in bulk, well. you have healing that goes through the transformation and beautification of the spirit.
it doesn’t matter the hurt, the pain, the suffering, or even the application of negative circumstances or what has happened to you as God’s warrior: he can clear the slate anyway, just ask that he makes you whole through the truth and faith you have in him.
there is wholeness that only God can give. lately I pray this prayer, and feel all the lights coming back on inside as his sunshine. put the faith in. and see how God moves and conspires the entire universe for you. you are his star, and he needs you to shine bright in your original light.
