libnan travels never written down yet, early jan 2017.

lately God has been bringing me to visions on mount sinai, and how we waited our whole life and made sure it was safe to go back to the middle east in order to give thanks. I miss the middle east a lot lately, because every time I go back to middle eastern countries: it’s not a vacation, it’s a holy visiting of giving thanks/prayers. of course there is enjoyment, but when I’m in the middle east God gives me strong visions, prayers, art, writing, and. it’s so blessed. I miss Libnan.

so God has been telling me to show people the blessed places of the middle east that he sends me to, to show them the holy and beauty.

I was blessed to start going to the middle east, at a bad time in my life. I went vegan and gave up animal byproducts for extreme depression at the time. I was focusing on my health. i’m going back to being fully vegan, and God has been preparing me on how to explain to people why I have to be vegan for religious reasons. all or nothing, and: as much as available/possible: no excuses. it’s a form of assyrian fasting, except you never eat animal byproducts as a form of prolonged religious fasting.

Julie, one of two who made sure I made it onto this earth, and took care of me as a baby: kept saying how she wanted us to visit Libnan, and see the goats. so, we all decided to finally go see Libnan, and visit all of our Libnani saints + pray to them. also to see the goats. I love middle eastern goats so much lol.

the holiness of the middle east is so sacred. so beautiful. and the people are so calm, and refreshing. and so humble, and peaceful.

lately I see visions of my Libnani art. but utmost lately, God has been showing me visions of Moses + Apostle Paul. Moses was a leader who had to get God’s people in alignment with the 10 Commandments. and Apostle Paul, for he cast out false gifts of the covenant God gives us the power of the Holy Trinity’s ability of closeness in heavenly knowing. Apostle Paul cast out the demons of a slave who had the gift of prophecy, but it came from the devil. God has been telling me that when people are annoying me, it’s a combination of Apostle Paul’s ability to discern that someone has a demonic spirit and they are annoying me. as well as Moses, and how I often when having to deal with certain things: get upset when people are not following the will of God. or, even myself at times.

the whole key part I wanted to talk about specifically was how Julie had us go deep into Liban in order to see an exorcist priest. in the Middle east, it is believed that if you are depressed then you have a demon or the devil attached to you so you need to get an exorcism. so I was essentially taken to this priest without me knowing, I just kind of took a nap on the way there and they took me to be exorcised. it actually was a blessing, in disguise, not an exorcism. what we thought was an exorcism was actually a blessing, and a confirmation that I am allowed to be a “psychic” and to be “spiritual” because it is blessed by God. essentially that I wasn’t demonic, that I was actually listening to God the whole time as someone who has the ability to see.

the priest saw that I had crystals, and in arabic there was back and forth english to arabic translation. he said that he wanted to take my crystals away. I argued, back and forth via a translator. and then he said along the lines: “she knows what she’s doing, it’s ok” as in she has the blessing to be able to carry crystals and be spiritual: as in it’s in God’s Holy Spirit, spirituality. the exorcism was actually a confirmation blessing, in saying that I am blessed by God in prophecy and ability to see visions sent by God.

I happen to be a multiple generation cup reader, and in being given the blessing of the priest in Libnan: that meant that something I thought was “witchcraft” was actually of God’s Holy Spirit + God’s Holy Trinity. I know that I have to trust the truth that God gives me, for God isn’t a human. why would he lie?

because I was a psychic throughout my life and still am, just God’s version of it: I struggled with the discernment of Apostle Paul. as in being able to see what Apostle Paul sees, and be correct about it. lately Apostle Paul comes to me in the form of prayer, to tell me not to listen to any other source of information that God did not send by the power of discernment. because people think that they have the gift of prophecy, when really they are “slaves to the devil,” and have a counterfeit gift. which is why Apostle Paul gets very annoyed. and also, how someone with a counterfeit gift who will label themselves as a “snake prophetess” in other formats of terminology within mythos: can give positive witness, but that doesn’t mean that they are a positive witness within the demon or attachment to the spirit of the devil on them. it’s a false power and is a counterfeit gift. the devil is a liar, and can only tell lies. God is the only truth, and can only tell truth.

I identify as “jesus spiritual” as in spiritual of God’s holy trinity, and used to identify as “spiritual” and not “religious” but I would say that I am spiritually religious. just Ya’Allaha’s Holy Trinity religious.

I think that lately what scares me within modern spirituality is that people will pass things off as spiritual, but I’m indigenous and tribal, and it’s very clear to me that it’s not of God nor actually spiritual: but a counterfeit gift, of the devil. or just very blatantly demonic. then people get defensive. but it’s an illusion, and not of truth of God, which has made me get really annoyed because it’s false teachings not of God nor of God’s heavenly realm. telling people that, they will mob on you for being truthful and honest: not of ego, but trying to be kind when they ask you. that’s why I don’t read for people anymore. because they get mad that I’m righteous. but my bloodline has been blessed to be righteous only if we follow God. my original last name means righteous, and even my changed American last name still means that regardless of the fact that when we immigrated here: they changed it.

I used to get mad that I would be righteous and extremely honest (+ still am), due to the backlash people would give me: and they would mob on me into extremes. but I realize that it’s the presence of God and Jesus in my connection to Mmshika Isho diet Ya’Allaha that causes me to be extremely honest + righteous when I feel the presence of something outside of The 10 Commandements or universal order of God. I start to get annoyed by false prophecy, or false prophets, or anything of that realm: because of delusion, and lies that causes annoyance/anger of Apostle Paul. also, Jesus did not sugar coat anything. and keeping Ya’Allaha’s Mmshika Isho in my heart forever means that I don’t sugar coat things, and the spirit of Ya’Allaha’s Mmshika Isho means saying no to things when things are very blatantly wrong.

that’s why when I am interacting with american culture or anyone outside of my tradition, or ethnicity: I always have to tell myself that I’m not being rude, I’m being righteous and also just Assyrian which people don’t like. it’s just a different culture. people get offended when you are following God’s will, and casting out everything that is not of God’s will. + place excuses.

anyways, cool little middle eastern stories + travels of the jewels of God. it makes me happy to share my travels. I miss the middle east so much, because I love praying in church and being in religious belief / holy land where my faith is not invalidated like in the states. there’s beauty and perfection to both lands.